♥ --Saturday, February 28, 2009
♥ Be with me forever.. <3 ♥
Ytd...suppose to go to darling's hse in the morning to help him choose his clothes but his mum is at home. So yup, we wore couple shirt. Cool or wat??? LOL 1st tme wearing tis kind of things which i dun and my whole family tot i was like ... LOL met darling at Cityhall then proceed to Dobhy to catch a movie but sian la...We only can watch it on Mon, Tues and wed. DOTS!!! Bump into SL, he's wif his friend then he again dao me pretend he nv see me. WTH!!! Dun wanna watch show at GV so no choice we go to The Cathay to see if we can catch any show. Wanna watch Bloody Valentine but it started le so yup keep deciding where to eat. In the we ate at Yoshinoya cos we're kinda asick wif fast food. Haha Bump into WP, YES!!! She working there. Cool or wat, but dunno why she dare nt come out but keep hiding behind the pillar. LOL Ate finish, went off to the stn. Dunno where to go cos we're still early. So took a train down to Pasir Ris. Darling wanna go to the toilet so i walked to the Int and i dunno why i can bump into 2 ppl which i dun wanna see and it's kinda shocking la. So waited for darling to come back, wanna tell him there's a toilet nearby. LOL But when he come back dunno why mood suddenly changemayb cos was too shocked to see them so ya. Darling la. Always so last min then no backup plan. In the end, we sit awhile at Pasir Ris. Walked to White Sand, but i jus suddenly dun feel like shopping jus dun hav the mood and darling was like huh? Why Why? He mite be tinking i saw ppl whom i dun wan to see or watsoever. Walked back to Int to take a bus back to sch, then again i dun feel like going sch so early cos we gt nth to do. Tot of taking a walk at the park but i rejected the idea when darling raise it. Had small quarrel again mayb regarding my attitude towards him. So ended up we took the bus to sch. While walking to sch or already reaching sch, some stuffs happen. Again quarrelled. Bump into Nico. WTF!!! Walked inside sch and quarreling on the way.
Went to Cafe 1 to meet Benson, waited for Su there but dunno why she so long in the end everything started so went there cos dunno who keep calling. Reached there, lots of ppl laughed at darling shirt cos ya...kinda funny too and i keep holding my bag where ever i go. LOL Had slide shows on Mr Andrew and it's also his birthday so ya...Happy Birthday Mr Andrew. Had lots of conversation wif Ms kok and she really help me to get a course in ITE in case i cant get into Poly. Thnks alot man. Oh ya...nw all the management noe darling and me is an item. So damn pai seh la. LOL Ate abit, share wif darling some rice then ate salad. Wanna eat wings but then TW told me hw they cooked it so ya did nt dare to eat it. LOL Took alot of crazy pics too. haha Shall upload it when i hav all as i only hav some nw.
Darling send me home and the journey was kinda quiet. Oh ya...while walking to Simei, I tot i saw Hidayat then darling say no is Gazalli but cannt be leh. LOL Tt guy damn look like either 1 la. haha And is wif a gal. OMG...So we followed them like a spy but sian...it turns out to be juniors who jus joined SC. LOL If nt cant disturb them. haha
Guess ytd was the worst quarrel we had and i was like shouting at him. Bump into Mr Chong and he saw us quarreling. Cant control or take it anymore. Mayb y i react like tt is cos the way u react/behave and it's so unfair when at times u expect me to say things out but u dun do it urself either. So it's the same way hw frustrating it is and sometime it can really make the imagination go wild and mayb also hav the fear of .... (u noe i noe, dunno then dun ask) Sometimes is nt cos of all those but jus dunno wat to say when u cannt really take care of urself properly. I'm nt there 24/7 by ur side taking care of u. It nt tt i'm no longer sweet like before, its's jus tt we've been quarrelling almost all the time and seriously it make me wanna go insane. Mayb my jealousy is overpowering and it cause the whole thing to be like tt. But it cant b blame cos when u really love the person, u tend to hav the fear of losing the person at the same time too. So ya. I guess tt applies to you too but it's jus tt u dun show it out. Or mayb u show it out in another way. Sometimes we encounter tis quarrelling and stuffs is always communication breakdown or misunderstanding. I guess i'll try to push jealousy aside and also try my very best to open things up to u but it cant always be me. U do hide things and dun tell me. So wat can i do? Wat i can say is...Fine. It's ur life i cant stop u. It's ur mouth i cant force u. As u noe i'm those kind who really bottle things up till when it's really full, i'll burst everything out. I've learnt tt, tt way is bad for health as i keep everything to myself cos i'm nt tt kind who will say it out and hurt ppl's feeling in a wrong way when i meant it the other. Mayb my EQ is higher than u. So i tend to be more emotional and mayb the way i act/do things is thru my emotional by crying, keeping quiet or mayb jus answering wif 1 or 2 words or jus staring into space.
Today morning woke up at 5+, jus to go down to help out. WTH!!! Then helped till 8 coming 9 quickly rushed home to bathe as i'm perspiring and rush out of the hse again. Msg darling and Hidayat to tell them i'm gonna be late but tt stupid Hidayat. Asshole sia. Say i forever late. WTH!! I really gt stuffs wat. I do admit sometimes i'm late but it's nt always. When i come early u dun start on time wat u expect sia. At least i do make an effort to come down ok nw like some who can make it but dun wanna come down. Alighted at Paya Lebar, took a cab down to Simei 7-11 where i can only tink of to buy milk for darling as he's craving for it or mayb wanna drink it then ask the uncle wait for me. Left my bag in the taxi as he scared tt i mite run away so quickly rush to the 7-11 and buy. Wanna buy his fav donut cos i scared he mite be hungry if he go for work later but they dun hav small change so no choice run back to the taxi and board it to sch. Reached sch abt 10.10 and nt all instructors are there, meeting nt started. So was so damn pissed la. Meeting suppose to start at 10 and again it started at 10.30. So no diff when u start the meeting late. If u wanna say abt ur instructors, take a look at urself 1st. It's jus a reflection. Hw ur instructors turn out to be is hw u behave and mould/groom them.
So freaking tired and u dun even appreciate our presence for those who make the bloody effort to come all the way down jus for a teambuilding which i find it waste of time. Camps is nt always abt teambuilding wif instructors but the most impt thing is COMMUNICATION and SUPPORT. Though i half agree wif u tt if we gt the passion to be an Instructors, no matter wat it takes will still come down. But i dun tink so. Passion is a thing but effort is also another thing tt makes up to be the "thing" tt we wanna be. Passion + Effort = Goal/Objecctives in life.
Teambuilding 1st part, Watch Patch Adams or Adams Patch movie. Kinda boring keep wanting to slp but jus endure. Learn alot from the show abt solving probs which is "When u hav a problem, look beyond the problems for solution rather than focusing on the problem" Some part kinda draggy. Starting to feel hungry but gotta continue wif our brainstorming qns. Had lunch after tt and cafe 1 is nt open. So most of them aate breakfast. Dunno y jus dun hav the appetite to eat mayb cos i'm too tired and sleepy or mayb i'm too pissed to be bother by anything.
2nd part,
Had some stupid games which we played before. Dunno hw many teambuilding they wan sia. Played Caterpillar and it's a really stupid game. Did debrief and also taught Sadli hw to debrief and stuffs. Cos the main thing is to let the new comers noe hw to debried the grp after an activity and wat to do after the activities. Next is stepping the numbers which some of us did in Blaze 2. My grp won so ya. After tt was Spider Web which is everybody gt to get thru it without touching the string/obstacles. Darling and me left after tt. Took train and he alighted at Cityhall as he's going to work while i took the train home. Rained so damn heavy and it's the whole day. Gt drench but fun!!! Bump into my mum, bro and aunts. Went home showered and watch DVD but fall aslp until abt 9+, had cup noodle for dinner and watch Ch U. Dunno wat funny and stupid show.
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