Today finally can slp till so late. haha Went to spects shop to check my lens cos kinda blur. Faster ruch home for abit of lunch then went to change and off to work. haha Darling had a wierd dream n its super funny n stupid only we noe y. But dun wry la darling. Tt dream of urs will nt come true n nv it will unless u're back wif tt bitch. I wont do such a thing like her man. In the train bump into my Senior JJ. haha He can recognise me. LOL Reached workplace kinda early and they dun let me clock in so i went to get chicken puff and chocolate amber to eat. Eat finish le go clock in. Today sudden slam sia during my timing. LOL Lots of drinks and guess wat today i sold 9 espresso passport which is a gd thing. Haha better than u Nick. LOL U still gt 4 more to catch up yea...Then during my break had Java Chip, Chicken puff and also Curry puff. End work also had a Turkey and Cranberry Sandwich and also dunno wat drink which i made it myself wif diff kind of stuffs in it. haha So today i ate quite alot of stuffs. Wanna noe y cos i nd to grow fat before 2nd apr or else dad gonna nag when his back y i'm so slim. haha Then abt 8.30 they start to off the lights. Heard is wat "Save the Earth day" haha looks so romantic kind la like clubbing like tt. LOL and true enough i walked down Clarke Quay area most of the outlet is kinda dim. Haha On the way back in the train saw lots of baby even on my way to work. Wonder is it "Baby day" also. LOL All so cute la. Darling's still at work and i kinda missed him. Guess shall stop here and do a brief update on the past few days....

Wed...

Whole day at home till evening i brought my sis out wif me to Liang Court for Coffee Presentation and also met my mum after tt. Had 3 type of coffee tasting which is Sulawasi, Sumatra and Siborong borong. haha Also had games and lucky draw. Did nt win any prizes for games cos we guess the wrong drinks but we won lucky draw which is a tall drink. Gave the voucher to my mum. Haha

Thurs....

Went for Uniform sales in the morning...Mr Lam treat us lunch. After work went to meet darling. Forgot where we went. i tink is go catch a movie at Cathay, watch the unborn. haha Had fun and yea...We did share lots of stuffs and finally i''ve tried to tok to him which things tt has been kept inside me.

Fri...

Woke up damn early and i dun feel like going to work but jus slp at home. haha darling was late as usual. So ya...He went off early cos he's going to work while i work till 6+ though we clock out at 5 so jus help lor. Then had some free dinner from 1 of the event slack at cafe 1 awhile and i totally forget tt i gt store meeting until Adib called so rush down to Clarke Quay then meeting was like only 1hr. Lots of updates and stuffs. haha Feeling so damn sleepy n tired la. Suppose to watch the horror show until i fall aslp. LOL

Labels: Somehow nw i wish time could stop...as things gt better

Ytd...nt working. So went out wif darling. Outing was ok for the 1st part. Everything went smoothly. Had waffles then went to walk ard. Bought a dress so damn look like gown. It's so damn nice and it's my ideal kind of dress or gown. Having discount so bought it at only $39.90. Orignal price is 60 bucks. It may seems expensive but i guess it's worth the money cos i'm gonna hav 3 wedding tis year as in attending nt getting married. 1 is my friend which i'm gonna be her sister, the other 2 which is i'm gonna be their bridesmaid. Cool or wat??? Get to share the joy of being a bride too. LOL

Went to play acarde as darling wanna play his dunno wat silent hill. Then went to play some air hockey i guess tt's wat they call. And went to buy Nachos. Watch Watchmen at Eng Wah!!! OH MY...2nd time catching a movie at Eng Wah. LOL Nt much ppl watch it so ya can imagine the whole theatre kinda eerie jus like the show coming soon tt kind dof theatre. LOL

Had dinner at Pizza Hut. Had baked rice and it was nice while darling hav his usual pizza. Order a few side dish and ya time really flies when u're enjoying. It's already 9 plus. So ya walked to the stn.

In the train some bad stuffs really happen n tts the 1st time i cant control my tears. Nt say arguement but i guess i've been keeping lots of things inside me which i really wanna burst out but cant. Dunno why tis time round the things u said really hurt my feelings alot and i jus cant control. It hurt so much tt the heart is worst then breaking. It's so different from the past which i can jus take it and leave it tt kind of attitude. I can jus give u attitude or say i dun wanna meet but i still did cos i noe u're only left wif 2 weeks and i really wanna try to make it a memorable 1 for u before u go in. But i guess it fail. I purposely cancel all my work schedule jus to hang out wif u but guess it also fail cos u dun even seems appreciate but more concern on y i wanna cancel my stuffs and it's al because of who? But its ok. Jus pray hard tt i can get to work. Friends always told me nt to sacrifice so much things in life e.g like SC. Dun sacrifice my studies for SC and i did nt even heed it until my grades drop. Nw i sacrifice my time for u even when i'm given slot but i chose nt to go. My qns nw is...Is it worth sacrificing for u or for someone when they dun appreciate it or mayb is it sacrificing in a wrong way? I noe u used to sacrifice somethings for me in the past and i really do appreciate it. I guess mayb it's also my fault for nt telling u tt i cancel all my schedule cos of u, but is it wrong to surprise own bf? OMG...I DUN REALLY NOE!!!

The things i always say to u is all true and i mean it. The things i did for u already show hw much u are to me. Do u tink i do it for the sake of doing? If so, i rather get someone to help me fold the roses, stars, hearts and aalso the paperbag or mayb jus buy something n give it to u so it save all troubles by sleeping late, getting up early getting accidental cuts on my hands and my time. But i din. I tried all my best to do it all so is it also do it for the sake of doing cos is valentine's day and our anniversary. If tt is so then i guess all my efforts and time really hava gone down to the drain. The song tt i send u, i really mean wat i wanna say and hw i feel. Believe it or nt, it's up to u. FYI...I'm nt like tt FUCKING BITCH BIMBO of urs who do things for the sake of doing and say things for the sake of saing. Why would i wanna do tt when i dun see anything comes out of it. I'm nt like tt FUCKER who holds a hostage in hand doing things for the sake of doing and say things for the sake of saying while preying on other innocent hostage to attack them by revealing only her soft and gentle side. She a BITCH who is in disguise to attack innocent man to fall for her. I'm nt tt kind of bitch. Though the mole thingy on the magazine really says tt i'm flirtatious mayb i do agree but i'm nt like her who go round flirting wif guys jus to make u jealous. If i really flirt do i even be bothered by u or even get bothered whether u care or nt. I rather u love me for who i am n not wat i am. If i'm jus like her, rite now i can hav dozens of boyfriends without even bothering whether i lose anay of them or nt even if so i'm nt at a losing end cos i gt so many of them. I seriously dun understannd wat u guys see in her? Is it her soft and gentle side or her prettiness? I guess maayb is both cos a wolf in sheep clothing is so effective of getting hostage but only smart ppl noe hw to escape from it.

Sometimes u say i must reflect on my mistake i guess u too hav to reflect who is who and wat is wat. I noe at times, the past do really bring us down to a place where no help can get but i still tink love me for who i am and nt wat i am. Dun try to compare me or put me wif tt BITCH of urs cos I'M NT HER. U mite say it's nt comparing or wat but to me in a sense u're comparing it in another way.

I jus wish everything could really go back to the past where we had our 1st quarrel and tried preventing it. Our very 1st quarrel is the time where we were havaing our study break for our finals. Things started to get bad from there and worst and nw even worst tt we can even tahan nt toking for weeks and let me tell u, i'm getting used to nt tokin u for weeks, i dunno why. So whether u tok or nt i dun get bother cos i noe u dun care. Some comments from friends was mayb we're too busy wif our own stuffs and event tt we're neglecting each other more n more tt due to the consequences like tt. I kinda agree wif wat he say.

Labels: I JUS WANNA SHOUT OUT EVERYTHING IN ME

Labels: I love hanging out wif u guys

Sunday

Had a bad start. Suppose to wake up early but having a terrible headache and feel like faining so slept awhile longer. Mum nag at me here and there for lag of nutrients, sleep and stuffs. Dun feel like going to work but cos of the stupid pay i wanna go. Mum told me they deposit into my acc but nt correct sia. I slog almost everyday and i only get 200 bucks which is like 1 hr=5 bucks. Cannt be sia. Msg my SM but no reply. WTF...Reached workplace, Nick was there then i clock in, he saw something was wrong. SM did nt change my things. FUCK!!! So all those days i'm working i'm like getting paid as a training which is 1hr=3.50!!! Had a stuck up MOD(Kristie) from CP. Nt friendly sia. Then she keep hiding inside the room leaving me alone outside wif no POS!!! Then keep taking break and going to smoke. OMG!!! Worked till 3 kinda happy cos i clocked out so dun hav to face her. Suppose to go for the appreciation nite at Pasir Ris but it's raining heavily and feeling nt too gd and also dun feel like going cos most of my close one are nt there. So ya...walked alone to Dobhy Ghaut and dunno where else my leg brought me to, as i dun wanna go home. Jus wanna hang ard. Had a tiff wif darling and stuffs. Shall nt tok abt it. Wanna wait for HH but she OT so jus continue walking till 9+ reach home coming 11 le.

Shall blog a few short and quick entry abt the past few days.

Thurs...

Attached to Plaza Sing Starbucks. Start work at 4. Damn lot of ppl and kinda sian cos the partners there nt so friendly until a few came in. Tok to Karl(china guy) and Raymond(Flipino) more as they are much more friendly. Worked till 10 and darling came over to fetch me home. Had mashed potatoes and gulp for my dinner. LOL Heavy rain cant even go home so no choice bought and umbrella at 7-11 at Gombak. Shared umbrella wif darling until my hse. haha Tiring day...

Fri...

Attached to Vivo...Worked from 2.30-11pm. Long working hour huh. Reached there all so old sia then 1 guy nt so friendly. But ok la. Still gt tok ard. haha 1st time using Menstariner(dunno hw to spell) Did lots of frap. Make new friends too like Ar Run, Jeorge, Christ, Melissa and Racheal. Darling, Alex and Alex's friend came and visit me. Kinda shock to see them. LOL they came at the wrong time placing their order as the manager is standing behind me so i gt no choice but to key in if nt they will get a free drink le. Darling pass me some food and also my course from MDIS as he and Alex went in the noon to check out the course. Stupid poly dun wanna take us. Wat kind of gov sch which always tok so much cock and bull story saying this n tt. Tok abt it piss me off man.

After tt they went off and catch a movie while i hav my 30mins break. Walked ard wanna go eat LJS but so many ppl so ya end up came back to Starbucks and ate a choco muffin. Darling came back ard 9+ and i gave him a Venti drink. He damn funny la. Cos he dunno wat i order for him. Haha He sat there till 11 and wait for me. Stupid Ar Run keep disturbing me but nice working there when u can hav fun and work at the same time. Clock out Make a tall Caramel for darling and a tall Mocha for myself. Darling send me home again. Thnks darling. Reached home coming midnite le then darling took a cab reach home coming 1+. Chatted on the phone till i tink 3.


Shall stop here. Nt really in the mood due to some stuff e.g the salary and also my headache. Working tml at 3-8 again at UE Sq. SM better ccome down man or else i'm gonna kill him for my pay. DAMN!!!

Labels: Working so hard for jus a peanut pay??? Wat the heck

Wednesday

Well for today was going to meet darling out proposed time was 12pm. Woke up around 11 got up and get ready see phone no reply so quite a hurry so went out msged her. While goin out then recieved her msg she was late coz she thought i was still asleep at home hah hah so proved her wrong again that i am not always wad she think i was hah hah hah anyway today we are watching the movie we always wanted to watch. "My Bloody Valentine" hah hah i brought the tickets first then waited for her she came bout 1.30 plus i think can't rmb then surprised her coz i gotten the tickets though she say cannot and i got her flowers hah hah glad to see her happy expression ^^ anyway tat day seriously was like on our Valentines day though we didn't really go catch a movie on that day hah hah so went to eat, went alot of places always got prob but in the end decided to eat Swensens! @_@ ya so thought we were bit late (maybe i kia su) then we go to the cinema and collect our glasses then went in hah hah we looked so funny with it lol. The show was quite cool the 3d effect was only best when there is like small stuff that can be thrown or kicked so ya so funny we got shocked when the murderer go throw the pickaxe or the gun and u will be able to hear the ppl making noise in the cinema. Worst one was went the guys head came off LOL flew out! hah hah so cool ar the effect. Then in the end, me and belle concluded the same thing that the murderer might be the police who was warning bout the guy she is with at that time lol but well shall not be a spoiler if anyone haven watched it LOL....

Anyway after the show, we went to Vivo City to walk, laughed alot made alot of jokes on the way and we had alot of things in common such as like we use to like the same 2 childhood song coz i was singing it and we somehow both agreed one of them was nicer and she again scold me for being a copycat so many times ler lol and ya and said exactly the same sentence on commenting which vegetable tastes the best lol ya... yes i noe she wan me to say in the blog that i was so paranoid by the incidents that i Laughed Out Loud in public maybe i caught the disease from her hah hah hah then went Toy 'r' us i dunno how the heck u pronounce that word ya so anyway inside toked alot of crap stuff then she played hide and seek but obviously i won lol she was so shocked coz she really thought i didn't noe where is she maybe coz i am slow at times...-_-''

then went to giant walk around see stuff then she saw this dunno wad water thingy looked interestin that put her head through so took a pic of it hah hah~ silly gal ya after gettin my stuff that i wanted we went bit crazy with kinder surprise eggs lol i got for myself her and her two siblings then brought her home. Then went to take train home fall asleep once reach pasir ris quickly chiong go out then reached home msg her but dunno y no reply very bored seriously coz msn today awefully quiet dunno y no one to tok to also for the first time... really missed her so tried msgin her seems she tokin to wee sian and serene then replied her but then no reply liao so guess she still busy toking to them bah or dunno wad also anyway... shall stop here coz quite bored think i will go sleep so ya signin off...

Feelins for the day: this month we quarrelled the most... dam and ya i still tryin my best to make ya happy! its okie wad ppl say bout me, and i dun care wad ur frends think bout me as long as u believe in me and ya hope U or we wld really learn to understand each other... sometimes we bit TOO similar in mind set sometimes that when i think u are angry, u will think i am angry and ya i noe we been through that too much even when laz time when we not together coz we have too much thing in common and dam lot of misunderstandin but i think mayb sometimes we shld really try put ourselves in each other shoes and try to feel wad we feel instead of always thinkin we are rite then maybe we will be able to understand each other. Sometimes u might be rite but then sometimes i might not be so wrong either hah hah yea and gal Stay happy alrite i will try my best to make sure u stay that way ^^ cheers!!!


Loves and Misses~

Monday

okie darling wanted me to blog so okie shall start with 3 days ago~

Had to wake up quite early went for uniform sales she was early despite our late phone chattin nite before well met Mr Lam he made up come at 9am but in the end started around 10 plus then we worked went to move stuff some one side to another then after that had to do the packing i did the packin with another malay guy didn't noe his name his a guy but i sometime think mayb he abit gal lol =x after that most of the SC ppl clock out but Mr lam told me to finish my work first so okie shall continue do after finish was quite sweaty but glad we finished she was tokin to wee sian while i worked then after tat me and her decided to go catch the movie we wanted darling insisted to buy tickets first before goin to eat but dunno y no good timing for us therefore we juz go eat then played bit of arcade and i brought her home

I am glad that she is back to her normal self after all the toking ytd nite so hope next time shall blog bout good stuff instead of always the bad stuff ya so tats for monday...


Tuesday

Today second day of uniform sales, this time i came earlier then darling hah hah but when come Mr Lam started scolding already so bit sian then after that juz started working at first bit fed up or shld say "blur" becoz they didn't explain properly how they wanted to set up the working environment even Ms Shirley agreed and say its a big mess while telling Ms Kah Wan hah hah anyway wanted to working next to darling and wee sian, i was quite tired and bored but she seemed very cheerful and happy so okie but then end up got appointed to pair with Aidil so bit sian but still okie orh hah hah well find bit extra coz his table there, felt he alone is more then enough then after tat appointed to go be security for the exit to stop students from coming in

so bit frustrated coz again my publicity for event after sending so many times, making so many amendments to the poster still not satisfied and deadline coming very near so bit sian somemore dislike troubling my frend so much so bit pissed and ya had to go do cashierin with this gal dunno her name also at first quite easy but as more student come bit tensed lol very kan chiong until i tear the reciept nearly into half. After that the gal went to eat with another gal and i had to do the cashier alone normally is the gal do but now i gotta do which i dunno how though got ask her how so juz do thought was easy but... forgotten that i gotta give change as well and the customer all mostly give big note damm confusing!!! =s and ya made a few mistakes several time when the queue gettin longer and longer.

After that was Aidil's turn to be security for the back and i still at my "ka lang ka bo" mood so dunno wad to as the rule is students cannot walk back to the entrance, in order for them to exit they are forced to walk all the way to the exit at the very end then U-turn back from the corner while counting the money Aidil scolded me for not informin them so at that time my mood wasnt so fantastic and was kinda pissed coz he had nth to do while i had so many thing to do when the customer come so felt he was bit unreasonable to the extend when i try reason him nicely he raised his voice at me well but somehow noe his that type of person so didn't bother juz kept it then sometimes looked at darling she seemed quite happy working at her corner Weesian was appointed to the front so she juz cross to the front to tok to him... but sian never come tok to me oh well lol ya so lunch time for me as the gal is finally back wanted to have my lunch with her as they said bring one person along only then waited for her awhile, at that time wanted to go to the cafe near the library turns out she wanted to eat there too so went saw benson on the way then i decided to tell her my probs but didn't turn out so well so ya dun feel like saying bout it

After that back to work, mood wasn't so good tried to msg a few times but not very successful then after a while went bit of a cold war coz she wont turn to really look so its okie though already from the start turned but not much of a smile so its okie ya then saw her bit happy already after tokin to her good frend then back to her usual self again walkin to the front to tok to ws so bit bored though nth much to tok to the gal then saw her tok to her best frend so while i nth to do did bit of drawin for her though at that time atmosphere wasnt so fantastic ya so after all that somehow okie though overall mood of the day sux... still thinking shld continue the work or not but somehow managed to make her smile again then i went to work while she go find her mother and ya suey again dun wish to say coz its pathetic then went straight home...

Overall summary sometimes when ya sad, stressed, worried, i will always be there for u to cheer u up but hope when i am sad, stressed, worried when i really needed u the most hope ya be there for me too^^

Ytd suppose to wait for darling but dunno y jus fell aslp. Made a wierd dream today again. And tis time it involve SC ppl like Jeff, Sharon, Su and darling and also my family, relatives and house. Dunno wat dream is tt but is like i'm going to fun fair wif darling and Su then there's this Farris wheel and also 1 more which is more exciting. Su and i wanna take tt Farris wheel and darling promise tt he'll bring me take tt exciting ride. After awhile is like i'm back home but tt place dun seems like my home, Uncle's were drinking at the bar-counter, Mum was like crying, bro and sis standing beside luggage. Sounds so funny rite. Me dunno why was crying too. I'm like carrying my stuffs and Jeff and Sharon like came and help out. Jeff help me carry my whole board of pics up there wif me and darling while Sharon dunno take wat. Inside the lift i can only rem the photos on the board is the grad and CNY at darling hse de pic. Came out of the lift i was like crying even louder dunno for wat like macham somebody die or watsoever la. And was like saying "hw can u bluff me, u promise to take me for the ride" or something. So i dunno if is it someone who pass away or wat. Quickly jump up from slp and it was like 4+. Saw darling mg and replied him. Keep staring at the phone but dun dare to go back to slp. Keep tinking wats the stupid dream abt.

Morning saw a bee flying on top me. OMG!!! Dun dare to lie any longer and jus dashed down. Wanna send my sis to sch so at the same time when darling end ard 3+ or 4 can meet him or give him a surprise. But dunno y something jus stop me from going out of the hse. So yup, my maid send her to sch. Bro slept while i was watching this indian show. Kinda funny and touching la. This couple was divorce and the guy disguise himself and make an effort to get near his wife to patch things up. Yup ending was, they're back tgt. After tt bro woke up, make food for him and ya it rain kinda heavy too so blackout lots of time. So bro and me took turns to walk to the circuit box. It's like 3 le still no msg from darling. Waited till 4 also dun hav. Waited till 5 also dun hav. Cannt b le ma. He shld hav end work by nw. Kinda worried so tried calling him but he cut my call then my stupid brosay mayb he lost his phone and ppl took it. So tried a few more times. Then try msging him. At last his msg came and he was like call me for?? So ok lor jus reply nth jus for fun. Shall nt tok abt it.

Maid and sis came back jus in time for dinner as bro and me were kinda hungry even though we ate junk food here and there. Had some teasing time wif them. Its been awhile since we do it. Siblings can b very irritating but they can b adorable at times too. Watch 2 DVD and also play abit of games. HH called ard 8.40 cos she's bored and wanna meet up but she's like at SK so by the time she come down dunno wat time le. Sian no choice but to reject her as i guess i dun hav the mood to go out cos the whole day i'm home and ya lying on the sofa watching tv jus like a patient who got be bed ridden. Nth much for today i guess.

Shall update more on my schedule tis week.

Mon : Uniform sales 9-4.
Tues : Uniform sales 8-6.
Wed : kinda free mayb redhill or hang ard.
Thurs : Starbucks (Plaza Sing) 4-10(hopefully nt many ppl).
Fri : same like Wed.
Sat : Starbucks (UE Sq) 10-3.
Sun : Starbucks (UE Sq) 3-8.

Shall stop my gloomy sunday post...

Labels: Guess it's time to relax gal...

Ytd...suppose to go to darling's hse in the morning to help him choose his clothes but his mum is at home. So yup, we wore couple shirt. Cool or wat??? LOL 1st tme wearing tis kind of things which i dun and my whole family tot i was like ... LOL met darling at Cityhall then proceed to Dobhy to catch a movie but sian la...We only can watch it on Mon, Tues and wed. DOTS!!! Bump into SL, he's wif his friend then he again dao me pretend he nv see me. WTH!!! Dun wanna watch show at GV so no choice we go to The Cathay to see if we can catch any show. Wanna watch Bloody Valentine but it started le so yup keep deciding where to eat. In the we ate at Yoshinoya cos we're kinda asick wif fast food. Haha Bump into WP, YES!!! She working there. Cool or wat, but dunno why she dare nt come out but keep hiding behind the pillar. LOL Ate finish, went off to the stn. Dunno where to go cos we're still early. So took a train down to Pasir Ris. Darling wanna go to the toilet so i walked to the Int and i dunno why i can bump into 2 ppl which i dun wanna see and it's kinda shocking la. So waited for darling to come back, wanna tell him there's a toilet nearby. LOL But when he come back dunno why mood suddenly changemayb cos was too shocked to see them so ya. Darling la. Always so last min then no backup plan. In the end, we sit awhile at Pasir Ris. Walked to White Sand, but i jus suddenly dun feel like shopping jus dun hav the mood and darling was like huh? Why Why? He mite be tinking i saw ppl whom i dun wan to see or watsoever. Walked back to Int to take a bus back to sch, then again i dun feel like going sch so early cos we gt nth to do. Tot of taking a walk at the park but i rejected the idea when darling raise it. Had small quarrel again mayb regarding my attitude towards him. So ended up we took the bus to sch. While walking to sch or already reaching sch, some stuffs happen. Again quarrelled. Bump into Nico. WTF!!! Walked inside sch and quarreling on the way.

Went to Cafe 1 to meet Benson, waited for Su there but dunno why she so long in the end everything started so went there cos dunno who keep calling. Reached there, lots of ppl laughed at darling shirt cos ya...kinda funny too and i keep holding my bag where ever i go. LOL Had slide shows on Mr Andrew and it's also his birthday so ya...Happy Birthday Mr Andrew. Had lots of conversation wif Ms kok and she really help me to get a course in ITE in case i cant get into Poly. Thnks alot man. Oh ya...nw all the management noe darling and me is an item. So damn pai seh la. LOL Ate abit, share wif darling some rice then ate salad. Wanna eat wings but then TW told me hw they cooked it so ya did nt dare to eat it. LOL Took alot of crazy pics too. haha Shall upload it when i hav all as i only hav some nw.

Darling send me home and the journey was kinda quiet. Oh ya...while walking to Simei, I tot i saw Hidayat then darling say no is Gazalli but cannt be leh. LOL Tt guy damn look like either 1 la. haha And is wif a gal. OMG...So we followed them like a spy but sian...it turns out to be juniors who jus joined SC. LOL If nt cant disturb them. haha

Guess ytd was the worst quarrel we had and i was like shouting at him. Bump into Mr Chong and he saw us quarreling. Cant control or take it anymore. Mayb y i react like tt is cos the way u react/behave and it's so unfair when at times u expect me to say things out but u dun do it urself either. So it's the same way hw frustrating it is and sometime it can really make the imagination go wild and mayb also hav the fear of .... (u noe i noe, dunno then dun ask) Sometimes is nt cos of all those but jus dunno wat to say when u cannt really take care of urself properly. I'm nt there 24/7 by ur side taking care of u. It nt tt i'm no longer sweet like before, its's jus tt we've been quarrelling almost all the time and seriously it make me wanna go insane. Mayb my jealousy is overpowering and it cause the whole thing to be like tt. But it cant b blame cos when u really love the person, u tend to hav the fear of losing the person at the same time too. So ya. I guess tt applies to you too but it's jus tt u dun show it out. Or mayb u show it out in another way. Sometimes we encounter tis quarrelling and stuffs is always communication breakdown or misunderstanding. I guess i'll try to push jealousy aside and also try my very best to open things up to u but it cant always be me. U do hide things and dun tell me. So wat can i do? Wat i can say is...Fine. It's ur life i cant stop u. It's ur mouth i cant force u. As u noe i'm those kind who really bottle things up till when it's really full, i'll burst everything out. I've learnt tt, tt way is bad for health as i keep everything to myself cos i'm nt tt kind who will say it out and hurt ppl's feeling in a wrong way when i meant it the other. Mayb my EQ is higher than u. So i tend to be more emotional and mayb the way i act/do things is thru my emotional by crying, keeping quiet or mayb jus answering wif 1 or 2 words or jus staring into space.


Today morning woke up at 5+, jus to go down to help out. WTH!!! Then helped till 8 coming 9 quickly rushed home to bathe as i'm perspiring and rush out of the hse again. Msg darling and Hidayat to tell them i'm gonna be late but tt stupid Hidayat. Asshole sia. Say i forever late. WTH!! I really gt stuffs wat. I do admit sometimes i'm late but it's nt always. When i come early u dun start on time wat u expect sia. At least i do make an effort to come down ok nw like some who can make it but dun wanna come down. Alighted at Paya Lebar, took a cab down to Simei 7-11 where i can only tink of to buy milk for darling as he's craving for it or mayb wanna drink it then ask the uncle wait for me. Left my bag in the taxi as he scared tt i mite run away so quickly rush to the 7-11 and buy. Wanna buy his fav donut cos i scared he mite be hungry if he go for work later but they dun hav small change so no choice run back to the taxi and board it to sch. Reached sch abt 10.10 and nt all instructors are there, meeting nt started. So was so damn pissed la. Meeting suppose to start at 10 and again it started at 10.30. So no diff when u start the meeting late. If u wanna say abt ur instructors, take a look at urself 1st. It's jus a reflection. Hw ur instructors turn out to be is hw u behave and mould/groom them.

So freaking tired and u dun even appreciate our presence for those who make the bloody effort to come all the way down jus for a teambuilding which i find it waste of time. Camps is nt always abt teambuilding wif instructors but the most impt thing is COMMUNICATION and SUPPORT. Though i half agree wif u tt if we gt the passion to be an Instructors, no matter wat it takes will still come down. But i dun tink so. Passion is a thing but effort is also another thing tt makes up to be the "thing" tt we wanna be. Passion + Effort = Goal/Objecctives in life.

Teambuilding 1st part, Watch Patch Adams or Adams Patch movie. Kinda boring keep wanting to slp but jus endure. Learn alot from the show abt solving probs which is "When u hav a problem, look beyond the problems for solution rather than focusing on the problem" Some part kinda draggy. Starting to feel hungry but gotta continue wif our brainstorming qns. Had lunch after tt and cafe 1 is nt open. So most of them aate breakfast. Dunno y jus dun hav the appetite to eat mayb cos i'm too tired and sleepy or mayb i'm too pissed to be bother by anything.

2nd part,
Had some stupid games which we played before. Dunno hw many teambuilding they wan sia. Played Caterpillar and it's a really stupid game. Did debrief and also taught Sadli hw to debrief and stuffs. Cos the main thing is to let the new comers noe hw to debried the grp after an activity and wat to do after the activities. Next is stepping the numbers which some of us did in Blaze 2. My grp won so ya. After tt was Spider Web which is everybody gt to get thru it without touching the string/obstacles. Darling and me left after tt. Took train and he alighted at Cityhall as he's going to work while i took the train home. Rained so damn heavy and it's the whole day. Gt drench but fun!!! Bump into my mum, bro and aunts. Went home showered and watch DVD but fall aslp until abt 9+, had cup noodle for dinner and watch Ch U. Dunno wat funny and stupid show.

Labels: hoping everyday will be a better day

Back to blog and tis time it's me. Haha from nw on i'm sharing my blog wif darling so ya. Haha Wil either take turns to blog abt the time we spend or mayb individual if we're nt tgt. So yup..bottom post was being blog by darling.

Dun wanna say anything abtytd but jus OH WELL...EXPECTED!!! haha and also dunno y gt so emotional. Yup yup..

Today, woke up damn early la, was on the phone wif darling but nth much to tok and duno y he suddenly ask random qns like wat animal u like and stuffs. Haha Guess he out the phone down abt 3+ 4 and he did nt sp but i fall fast aslp on the phone. LOL Starting it was hard to slp as i'm used to hav bedtime story from darling before going to bed but ytd was jus silent and random qns. haha So morning jump up from bed and found out tt my phone was off as there's no batt le. LOL Tts y i tot hw come so wierd my phone nv ring or wat. LOL

Huan morning call me at 9 but i'm so damn tired so continue lying on my bed though we suppose to meet at 10. Haha in the end, met her 10.20 at BB Int. LOL Then tt LJ ass sia. I tot he'll late cos he msg me say he mite b late in the end he reach 1st still say me. LOL Darling suppose to join us but he did nt slp the whole nite cos hescared he mite b late so ya. Told him to go and slp a he wanna come and fetch me from work later. So went inside MAC to find LJ, he was like halfway thru his hot cakes. haha Chatted awhile but mostly was me n LJ as i dunno why HH is so quiet. So...matchmake = UNSUCCESSFUL!!! haha And damn sad la...when we meet LJ, HH cant recognise him. OMG....H was like who sia...OH MAN....4 yrs of classmate and u forget. LOL But fun la cos in sec sch LJ keep disturbing me so nw it's my turn to suan him back. LOL Stayed till 11 then we went off. Took a train to Orchard as i promise HH to follow her see her shoe. Walked to Ngee Ann and TAKA....OH MY...She so damn fussy la. haha

Acc till 1 like tt then we walked to the stn. Went seperate ways as she head towards SHAW HOUSE while i head towards the stn to Clarke Quay. Was kinda early wanna go to wkplace and take a nap but OH WEL...it's raining so ya no choice stay at Centra sit there and try to slp. Almost fall aslp when tis stupid gal dunno from wher sit behind me reading her book but keep roccking the chairs. So damn pissed off sia. Tried to slp again, woke up saw a butch in front of me staring at me. Look kinda pretty but also look like a man leh. Haha gt shocked so walked ard to see if i can see ny cute, nice and cheap umbrella. So went up to More Than Words, when darling msg came. He jus woke up. Haha But then he went back to slp when i reached my workplace 10mins later. LOL Pig rite. Slp, wake up and eat. haha Damn sad la...he dunno wat type of guy i like =(=(=(=(=(=(=( But it's ok cos i've found the type of guy i wan. haha

Work all the way and also had fun. Time really flies. haha Did all my stuffs quite fast. LOL Cool huh??? haha I'm getting the hang of it . YEAH!!! LOL Rafie came in at 7 then he keep disturbing me tgt wif Nana. LOL Lots of trash to throw, thnks Rafie for helping ya. haha Su called say she's coming and ya 8 le she's still at DOVER!!! OMG...I end work already sia. So waited inside then acc 1 of the partner to Delifrance forgot his name liao. LOL Su keep calling and she was sodamn funny la my whole colleg was laughing at her as she dunno where's Liang Court and UE Sq when i gave her the bus number or the routhe to get there. LOL "Street Idiot" Nt only bus idiot.haha After buying went back to starbucks tried making Sherbet Lime for darling as he told me he dreamt tt he's eating Sherbet Lime, But it did nt turn out tt nice and the taste is nt there yet. Gonna improve on the recipe man. She called again saying she dare nt cross the road so i told her dun wry someone will save her but she dunno who. Went out to wait for her in case she overshot or cant find Starbucks. LOL Then i saw darling beside her and i asked her...is anyone wif u, she say no so i tot mayb wrong ppl. But when they cross the road and started walking towards me both of them dun even noe. LOL So damn funny sia. haha Darling also late. So yup...When he come quickly let him try but haiz...he still dun get the hint/meaning. So nvm...mayb the taste is nt there yet.

Went to Liang Court to hav Subway for dinner. Hav been craving tt for so many days. LOL Finally. haha Crap all the way and darling as kinda quiet at times dunno y also. Mayb i'm starting to realise wat ppl means when they say "3's crowd" Met Asyhikin and also 1 more gal from Chingay. They going clubbing. LOL Wanna drop by to visit me but too bad i end work. haha Other time perhaps LOL Then we walked, wanna take the G Max Bungy and the swing as student is only 30 bucks but if take the combo is like 50bucks for both ride. Kinda ex la. Pay tis amount jus to go up and shout then feel scared all those. LOL Wanna try take but then at the same time scared. haha Moreover, we jus had a heavy dinner. LOL Other time perhaps. haha

Walked from Clarke Quay to Raffles Place. Walking distance man but i dun tink it's kinda far as we're crapping all the way so route mite seems short if u hav acc but long if u're alone. Haha along the way, pass ome pubs and there are prostitute. OMG...Damn scared of those kind of ppl so walked past them kinda fast and dun even wanna look at them. LOL

Darling send me home then saw him blush outside my door step. LOL dunno why.

Shall stop here. Tml no work man. Gonna spend my whole day wif darling at his hse, then to town then to sch for appreciation nite. Hope i dun show him any stuck up attitude.

Labels: great and fun day., Had a sleepy, tiring

Nth much to do so shall blog abt Valentine's day....It's a great Valentine's day for me as well as darling. I hope so. Cos 1st time celebrating. haha

Labels: Valentine's day09 is the day which i celebrate wif my friends and loves one. =)

Labels: Leg is aching ma...But i had lots of crazy moments wif my crazy friends

Bella :D

Isabella :D
18 this year
Staying in Bukit Batok
Hyper active and cheerful
Easy and outgoing too
Loves all her friends
single or attach
Currently working at Starbucks

Berwin <3 :D
Sulastri =)
Hui Huan =)
Gowri =)
Meera =)
God Bros
God Sis

1. Last long wif her darling
2. Do lots of stuffs wif her darling
3. Watched sunrise mayb wif darling
4. Spend more time wif darling
5. Celebrate my whole life of birthday wif darling
6. More outing wif darling
7. No more quarreling or cold war wif darling
8. Hav lots of fun wif her friends especially those closed wan
9. More soft toys e.g Tigger, Eeyore, Strawberry
10. Star gazing 11. Get into Poly

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